A Busy God?

                                

I have to recognize that as I write this post I can feel my blood “boiling” with so much anger, and God’s spirit fighting the battle inside. How much more evil is going to contaminate this world? When is it going to end? Why so many times do people take advantage of others with impunity? This reminds me of King David or even Job. I certainly understand how they felt!

What is all this about? I had been looking for a good doctor who specialized in hormones. I had the misfortune to be present at an bio-identical hormones talk in my city, where I met this doctor. She told my husband and I that she had experience in treating hormonal problems, and she could prescribe me what I needed. She also said that because she had made some deal with the labs, we could get a discount. It sounded perfect, so we went to see her.

She heard about all my physical problems and sold me some supplements. At the end of my consultation, she assured me that she would send the prescription for my bio-identical hormones to the pharmacy where we met. While we waited to be charged for the visit, I talked a little with this doctor and her secretary, who told me that they were Christians too. Many days passed by and she didn’t send my prescription to the pharmacy. I later found out that the reason she didn’t do it was that she was offering something that she couldn’t do. She not only has NO knowledge about hormones, but she doesn’t even have a license to prescribe them! She has some kind of a deal with another doctor, who signs the prescriptions for her! But something went wrong this time and I never received what she promised.

It would be great if this were the end of our story with this doctor, but it is not. I ordered some tests at the local lab and she offered to put them under her name, so we could get a discount. when I called to pay and get a copy of the test, she assured me that I wouldn’t be charged for the test after all. The reason, I assumed, was that she probably felt bad for lying to us and not being able to prescribe me the hormones I needed. Maybe she actually had a conscience and was trying to make up for taking advantage of us. I said thanks and nothing else, as to not embarrass her about it. How wrong I was about her! After she said these lab tests would be free, she sent us an invoice, asking for way more money than they normally charge to any person who just walks into the lab!

You would understand that at this point I was extremely upset. I talked with her on the phone to let her know that it is wrong to take advantage of her patients, lying to them and making them waste money and time. She was surprised! Can you imagine? She said she didn’t do anything wrong! and you know why? Because she is not a Christian. How in the world would she know that stealing, lying and taking advantage of others is wrong?

In a way I don’t blame this charlatan doctor, she has probably been taught that raising her hand and repeating a meaningless prayer makes you into a Christian. She doesn’t understand a bit about honoring God, loving others or being honest, but she still considers herself a Christian. I just hope that the Lord has mercy on her, and makes her understand that being a Christian is way more than raising our hand one Sunday morning.

Has my anger diminished? Not that much. But I understand that until true Christians don’t take Jesus’ commandment of sharing the Gospel seriously, especially in their churches, this will happen again and again. Yes, it feels like the Lord didn’t do anything about this injustice because He doesn’t care, but you know what? Even in the middle of my anger and frustration, I know He is there and He wants the best for my family and for me. He still has a plan and He is still in control. Even if I am not! and I choose to trust in Him and His infinite love and wisdom, even against my own inclinations. I know that He’ll eventually bring peace to my life and will make my dependence on Him grow, and that is a good plan.

Is God Busy? No! He is working.

By the way. Stay away from any so-called doctor who offers you to order your blood test results under their name, supposedly with the intention to giving you a discount. We ended up with a bill more than double the normal going rate!

Many are trusting their experience of salvation was real because they prayed a prayer once.Then they went on to live for Satan. What is the difference between true conversion and the once in a life time act that is preached as conversion in most churches? Find it out in this short video!

Rejoice in the Lord! The earth is full of His goodness

Rejoice in the Lord, O you righteous!
For praise from the upright is beautiful.
Praise the Lord with the harp;
Make melody to Him with an instrument of ten strings.
Sing to Him a new song;
Play skillfully with a shout of joy.

For the word of the Lord is right,
And all His work is done in truth.
He loves righteousness and justice;
The earth is full of the goodness of the Lord.

Certainty in The Darkness

In the middle of the silent, dark night I toss and turn in bed trying to make my body relax. I want to fall asleep but there is no way. What began with terrible family news one year ago was followed by a severe and relentless case of depression. The worst part is that, although I have passed the deep depression stage I’m still struggling with its sequels: nervousness beyond reason, uncontrollable anger one minute, and bursting into a laugh three seconds later, not being able to remember what triggered my anger. What has happened to me?

One physical problem keeps leading to another in a chain reaction of terrible bad health. This is beyond my comprehension. What will happen next? What will the doctor find when he does that dreadful biopsy in my neck? I am scared to death, and because my body is so messed up I cannot even cry. “I am afraid”, my thoughts resound inside my head. God’s still voice whispers in my mind, “What are you afraid of?” My immediate response… “Uncertainty Lord, I am afraid of uncertainty”.

In the middle of the night, he comes very close like a father or a mother who sits at the feet of my bed, and teaches me something about Him. I am amazed to discover what is in my heart, “Lord, amidst uncertainty, you are the only certainty I have.” As soon as my own words sink into my mind, every bit of anxiety vanish, “Lord you are in the middle of all this uncertainty. That makes all the difference in the world!” I can feel a smile emerging from my pursed lips. My body relaxes, my mind is at ease. “I am in your hands Lord. Everything will be just fine.” I close my eyes and bless my Father. The night doesn’t seem so scary and depressing anymore…